It’s late Sunday night. The thunder is rumbling. A cool breeze is blowing in the windows. My wife is in bed asleep. The TV is on with the sound all the way down so that she isn’t disturbed and I have a little light by which to write.
I’m emotionally drained and tired…too tired to fall asleep, if that makes any sense. A major life decision has been made, and I am in a reflective mood. Oddly enough, I thought about my grandfather tonight as I watched a retrospective on 60 Minutes of Mike Wallace’s career. It made me think of the 55 mile trips our family used to take to Fond du Lac to visit my grandparents on certain Sundays. The evening would always conclude with 60 Minutes on the TV. My grandfather was a news and current events fanatic.
I wonder what he would think of the current events in my life. He was a very wise man who didn’t always wear his emotions on his sleeve. Tonight my own emotions can’t help but rise to the surface. Consider the last few weeks:
- A decision to accept a Call to Florida and start a new chapter in life
- People walking through our house as we try to sell it (we decided we were going to move whether or not I accepted the Call to Florida)
- An accepted offer on our house within ten days
- Demands for repairs as a condition on the sale of our house
- Calling people to do those repairs and get them done
- Considering where we will live when we move to Florida
- Helping my wife put things together for a job search in Florida (praying that the Lord will see fit to make this part of our transition resolve quickly)
- Beginning to sort through, dispose of, and pack up our things
- Wondering about logistics of the entire transition
- Feeling badly about disappointing some; feeling happy about exciting others
- Thinking about those in Milwaukee whom we are going to greatly miss
- Looking forward to getting to know those we will soon be serving
- Mourning the loss of our dear old (90-year-old) neighbor
- Excited about the possibilities of a new ministry
- Finishing up teaching two different classes
- Submitting a writing project for Creative Communications for the Parish
- Discovering that my best friend and I will soon live on opposite coasts of the country
My emotions match the rumbles of thunder and flashes of lightning that fill the night.
But as I look at this list I am thankful. I am thankful that through all of the above I have people who help and support, a family who loves me, and a God who is forever faithful.
I better try to get at least a little sleep.
How are you making it through all the emotional ups and downs of your life?